My mom gave me that cross last night. I was going to kill myself today. I was going to drive a foot long throwing knife through my heart. I did some horrible things when I was younger that I could not forgive myself for. I was an atheist for most of my life. It was just because I did not understand god and the love he has for me and all of his creation. I do understand now! and I have let god and jesus into my life heart and soul.