A lovely woman I work with gave it to me, made me cry that she had thought so much to give it to me. That she had noticed and cared enough. I am dealing with a very dark sad strange person who was in my life for a very long time. Parting was my choice not his. The darkness is frightening, toxic and difficult, and pierces many other lives not only mine. To remove him entirely from my life is taking all the strength and faith that I can muster. It’s lonely and sometimes feels better to have the darkness there, than emptiness, but that can’t be right – and takes more strengh to keep moving.