My mother gave my cross to me on 8/29/12. I was molested when I was 7 until I was 10 years of age. The person was convicted but there I stood as a young teen convicting myself. I became addicted to meth and then switched my drug of choice to prescription pain medications. I had no choice but to choose the drug every time. I became pregnant and my son passed away when he was 33 days old from a heart disorder. I was hurt and thought that God had abandoned me. I went to rehab where I learned that I was filling this God Gaping Hole with Drugs. I had never forgiven. I learned that forgiving is not condoning what was done to me but to let the grip off the other person’s throat. The person I had not forgiven was me. I have taken my grip off of my neck. I am no longer a victim, I am a survivor, and God knows that. God loves me and has forgiven me. I have three beautiful children now and I sponsor rehab patients. God was there through it all and would never abandon any of us.