Wilson and Sara Catherine
Shortly before celebrating our first wedding anniversary, my husband and I received the happy news that we would be welcoming not one, but two children into our new family. Sadly, our excitement was soon met with the devastating news that one of our twins had been affected by “vanishing twin syndrome.” Though we were thankful for one healthy baby that was still on the way, our hearts were broken. Still, the months seemed to fly by, and we anxiously awaited meeting our first son. We were in no way prepared for the turn of events that we were about to face.
At 21 weeks, I went into early labor, and the doctors were sure delivery was imminent, and we were told there was virtually no chance for the baby’s survival. Even so, we hoped and prayed that the Lord would send us a miracle. We did indeed receive the first of many miracles and did not deliver until 13 days later. Asa John was born at 22 weeks 5 days, the smallest but sweetest baby we had ever seen. He weighed a whopping 1 pound 2 ounces. He struggled at first, but made a dramatic recovery that wowed everyone. He was even able to undergo gastroschisis surgery successfully at only eight hours old. In the days that followed we had ups and downs, but he continued to fight for his life. We kept up the faith, and truly believed he would surely survive and one day have his picture hanging in the hallway leading up to his room in the NICU, along with the other healthy looking teenagers that had also once been “preemies.”
How I wish that I could tell you that we were right, that Asa is with us today, and that our family here on earth is whole. The gut wrenching truth is that seven days after he was born, Asa went home to be with the Lord. As I write this testimony, only a few weeks after losing our first born son, I struggle for words and I still have so many questions.
This however, I know to be true. “The Lord gives and the Lord takes away, but blessed be the name of the Lord.” We do not understand, and to be honest, we don’t know how this circumstance could ever be for the good, but we are trusting that the Lord is ever faithful, ever loving, ever good, and that somehow, he will show how “all things work for the good of those who love him and walk according to his purpose.”
We are so very thankful for the time we had with Baby Asa, and look forward to the day when we will hold him again. I pray that whoever reads this will put their trust in Jesus, even in the darkest of days, and truly know that “the Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18
Sara Catherine and Wilson